Hello fellow simmers, wow, haven't the emails dropped off? Let me start the ball rolling again (hopefully). This past year has been SO fullon for me. Medical dramas, legal dramas good Gawd! It is nearing the end of both dramas, and i have discovered that i am older (yes turning 50 was quite a shock and now i'm FIFTY ONE, laffin), wiser, and have worked thru an enormous amount of painful stuff and am in a much better place both physically and emotionally. Last March i went into hospital with stomach ulcers, caused by an allergic reaction to long term use of a slow-release painkiller, used for meds-related side effects. So i had to stop using it. Next i developed such extreme pain in my lower back and spine the dr was thinking it was a degenerative disease called ankylosing spondylitus. Turns out it was no such thing. The long term painkillers masked the fact that my pelvic floor and related muscles had lost nearly all their muscle-tone. Instead of having a degenerative disorder, i was a lazy-arse, *grins*. I now go to a lovely physiotherapist, who has put me on very gentle exercises designed to build those muscles up over time, and i no longer need a cane to get around. He even said that it is possible that some time in the future i can throw away my new brand of pain-killers (YaaY). So the upshot is i am healthier, i have lost 10 pounds, i do gentle exercises twice a day and have radically changed what i eat... i stress this is NOT a diet, this is a lifestyle change. I'm actually eating more than i used to, just different foods. On the legal side, Mum died in '08, and a sister decided to challenge the Will, with 2 siblings supporting her. A sister, a neice and i opposed that action. A lot of to-ing and fro-ing with affidavits opened up a lot of pain about our childhood, my childhood relationship to my parents, issues like that. We have reached the stage where a last offer has been made, it will be accepted or we go to court. And because of all this pain, all this soul-searching, anger, frustration, and on and on, i have come to a place of peace within myself. It was hard, it was painful, and it was worth it. The action is not over, but i am not as emotionally invested in it as i was. What happens will happen. I thank God i went through all of that, because i am in a much better place than i was before it. I have reconciled a lot of my childhood pain, i see my parents in a much kinder light, and have been able to forgive myself for some of my parenting errors. The bonds with one sister have been renewed, and hopefully that strong supportive relationship will continue. I guess i wanted to share both of these life-changing events with you for a few reasons. Firstly i want this group going again, now i'm focussing on it again, lololol. Secondly, YES pain HURTS and then we grow. Whatever you are going thru, you WILL learn something from it, and i hope and pray that the outcomes will be as wonderful as mine have been. Thirdly, i'm still a lazy-arse and hopefully telling you lot that i exercise twice a day will help me DO IT! On the non-stress side, i received 31 boxes of books and records from Mum and Dad's estate. I've been slowly going thru them and in some ways its a lovely walk down memory lane. I'm not going to run out of reading material in a hurry! There were also photos, old diaries, little things from Mum and Dad and stuff i'd left at home years back. My sister packed all of these boxes up for me, arranged storage and then the removalist. A truely wonderful gift. I'll need to get a record player made, i understand that is quite easy these days... modern innards with a top capable of playing the old records. And i mean OLD... shellac, 33 1/3's i think. One thing that happened with some of the records was that they were stored in brown paper covers, individual sleeves. Some of them have stuck to the records they were sleeving... does anyone know of a safe way of getting that paper off the records? I'm going to write another email about my latest Simming experiences... the dramas of reorganising your downloads because (of course) the bloody game was stuffing up! LOL Please share your life with us, i'd love to read how you are all doing, what is right, what is wrong in your lives. In my dark times, when i reached out to this group, you were there, and i thank you for that. You helped me, with your sympathy and understanding. It's not just the joys that we share, but the bad times too, when we can. Hoping to hear from you, Owlsy
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